Love

Love. Now that's something I both love and hate. I love the feeling of being in love but, to me, love is just another way to get hurt.Tortured.Insane. Yes, I may only be a junior and you can go on saying that I don't know what I'm talking about but if there's one thing I know about it's love.

A long time ago I was given a book called "This Side of Paradise" but was told not to read it til I was older because I wouldn't understand it. He was right. The book is about empty flirtations, broken hearts, lies..til the character gets to the point where he's "cynical and world-weary." That's how I am. That's how many of us are. My eyes have lost their glow-that glow you'd get when you're in love and feel nothing but joy. But I'm done with all that. I can barely feel. I've forgotten what it feels like to be in love.

So I'm sick of it. I'm sick of waking up every morning for school just to put up with everyone's cheesy, gooey love stories that I honestly do not give a damn about. For instance, it's almost valentines day. Half the people I know are talking about their dates and the other half are mourning because they just broke up with their beloved ones or mourning because the one they love someone who likes someone else. News flash classmates: I know how that feels. I've been there and put myself together. I may be horribly bitter now but I put up with it so just quit mourning and pull yourself together before I literally kill you.

The truth is, people aren't worth falling in love with. The world is filled with lies and disappointment and will remain that way. And if you can't trust, how can you love? I've seen people I know emotionally destroyed due to love. Do they deserve it? No. But it happens.

I now have this killer headache but how can you not get a headache after listening to everyone's love stories and giving them advice I was forced to give. The only people I choose to help are those that I offer my help to. And here's what I got to say to end this blog: It may not be today or tomorrow, but someday you'll find the love of your life. Don't go wasting your emotions because if he/she doesn't pay attention to you, who are worth fighting for, then they're simply not worth your tears and smiles. Let them live their lives in misery while you find someone who'll pay attention to you as you do to them. Falling for those not worth it is a mistake.